The whole team played like shit during the championship, so we lost, which is kind of a shitty way to end your season, but i had fun. Minus the part where i dislocated my jaw on friday. Some fucker checked me from behind, and it got dislocated. It was a lot of grinding on the left side of my jaw and then this crazy pop. It's not that serious. It still feels like someone hammered a couple nails into my jaw, which is better than it felt on friday and saturday, and i can't touch my teeth together yet, but i should be able to by wendsday or thursday. I can hardly eat. and the doctor wants me to avoid over working it.
The weather down there was rad, it was sunny and 70 degrees the whole time. I got my dad to drive me around this morning after we checked out, we had like 3 hours to kill. so he just drove and if i saw something i wanted to phorograph, i told him to stop. IT was nice. I got some really nice pictures of this fucking ancient tire swing, empty dirt roads, bridges and all kinds of rad shit you only find out in the country. which was cool.
I'm dreading school tomorrow, i didn't do any of my homework on account of the tournament, and then i have to do a whole bunch of late/make up work that i blew off early in the semester that's due tuesday in order to salvage my grades in those classes, in addition to all the make up work ill be getting tuesday since i missed school friday to drive down there and play.
And i have to do well in all my classes or risk my dad castrating me, and potentially no college. I want to go to college, but ive realized it too late and im just now getting my ass into gear. Plus, ive no idea where i want to go, what i want to major in, who would accept a kid with grades like mine and no extra curriculars except state champion hockey player. no idea want i want to do with ym life
And then there's hockey.
Junior nationals tryouts are in april, and all the u18's are in may, so i need to stay on the ice in order to be ready for those, and the only pick up around here is at piney on tuesday and thursday mornings, which means if i want to stay sharp i have to miss at least on first and half of second every week, but once a week won't keep me sharp enough for juniors, so i don't know where ill find a second and third ice slot to practice. Plus the fact that i may not even be good enough to play juniors. So if i don't make juniors i play u18 my senior year, and if i don't get to college im done after that. And if i do go find a college with a hockey team, none of them take true freshman anymore unless your ridiculous, so i'd have to wait until sophomore year to play, unless i play a year of juniors up north after i graduate or prep school. prep school won't happen, and neither will juniors if i don't make junior nats this year, so me making juniors is imperative to the rest of my hockey career.
I'm so scared/lost/stressed/worried/strung out/ready to break.
someone kill me.
or offer advice.
or a hug.